cheryl

few minutes of nothing

2012-02-13T20:00:00.000-08:00

I know I am not supposed to be on this page typing at all because I have things to do and issues to handle. But I am just gonna crap for the sake of crap-ing since I have not really spent my time crap-ing right here. Not much to share actually. But probably, maybe, perhaps just a thread of my thoughts. SHHhhhiiiittz! I have no idea what I want to say. I just want to type something here and feel like I have accomplished something. -.- HAHA! Okay. Once in a blue moon, I like. no I need. I need to have time for myself. I am on cloud nine because we have officially finished all our project submissions. HHHEEEEEEHAHHHHHHH~! I really wish to share things with you guys but I am sorry I don't have much time. hehe.

I can't even wake up on time for 2pm class. good job! And say hi to my just wake up face

moments of my life

2012-02-12T05:44:00.000-08:00

When school just started

Really need a getaway desperately

Yes I grew chubbier!

And my stress is getting more unbearable

Love this colour changing ring!!!

And "diamonds" that changes position when you shake them

Hehe my disgusting face

*flying kiss* and goodnight!

because tmr is another war

2012-02-07T22:00:00.000-08:00

Before hair cut

After hair cut today

Anywayz I just installed instagram on my phone

Wa!!! Excited!!! HAHAHA!

hehe. I know I dam lag. but better late than never.

I miss all my friends!!!

muack muack muackzxzx!

feel and think

2012-02-02T05:32:00.000-08:00

I've been feeling things I don't feel.

I've been feeling the way I dont feel.

I've been feeling different.

I've been thinking things I dont think.

I've been thinking the way I don't.

I've been thinking differently.

nonsensical thoughts

2012-02-02T05:26:00.000-08:00

I wish I am a robot who can sit right in front of my precious lappy and type continuously without having to rest at all. Maybe being a robot is much easier? you don't have to eat, you dont have to slp and you dont have to rest. So now can I turn myself into a robot and do my projects without resting? Seriously, why am I a human? why do I need to feel tired? okay...I know it is normal for every human to rest and sleep. But I find it rather redundant. You might be thinking that there's something wrong with my thoughts. yea whatever. I dont give a shit. Lemma continue my robot nonsense. yea... If I were a robot, I dont have to feel a thing. NOT A SINGLE THING! Wouldn't be wonderful? You don't know what is happiness and you don't know what is sadness. Without sadness and suffering, it's all that matter. You don't know what is stress and without it, life is perfect. I don't want to be a human. Let me be a robot.

Stronger than yesterday

2012-01-29T21:00:00.000-08:00

A song that motivates me to do my work. HAHAHHA! It is insanely addictive and it helps to release my stress. Don't believe? Blast it and TRY SINGING IT OUT!

Smile

2012-01-28T14:00:00.000-08:00

Smile, a language that even a baby understands

Is there any piece of me left in you?

tortuous life ahead

2012-01-24T23:30:00.000-08:00

Right after Lunar New Year, there's IB test, MA test, POE individual submissions + 3 other individual submission and 4 project submission & then it's EXAMMMM! Oh shitzxzx! Forgot to do IB last week. Hope i don't receive any warning letter! Okay I shall chiongzxzxz NAOOOOO~~!!!!!!!

I'm sorry friends if I MIA-ed or have been MIA-ing or start MIA-ing.

Get out of my mind

2012-01-20T23:30:00.000-08:00

Hopelessly hoping

2012-01-19T08:21:00.000-08:00

Energy totally drained out and all I need is a break!

ZOMG! Imagine everything that's supposed to be done in one term has to be done within a semester?

It's like time is divided into two, when time is limited and now even more limited.

How the hell are we going to survive?

P.S: one million reasons to give up, yet only one reason to keep you going

Friday the 13th

2012-01-13T23:30:00.000-08:00

Morning exertion of dragging myself outta bed early has become a norm and obviously I don't fancy it at all. After a what I would call a "major" accounting test, I lay down upon my sofa and endeavored to turn in early tonight. It was a useless attempt. My mind has been too excited by the new episode of vampire diaries, and I would never believe that I would sacrifice abit of my leisure time to watch my drama series which I have not watched for months. As long as I have not viewed my precious drama series, I felt that sleep would be no easy matter for me even though I am totally TOTALLY worn out. As I look beside me, there are piles of work to be done and things to study. All of that is making me feel guilty right now, but gratified that I removed them into my drawer, I tell myself it is okay to take a break. Well, I've not had a short lil leisure time for a v long time. so why not huh? Yes today's test was pretty manageable and seeing everyone leaving the exam place quietly in a confident manner convinced me that everyone is very well- prepared this time round. Now, it is late. very late, for I knew that my drama series have detained me. Now goodnight folks! Have a great weekend !

unkind

2012-01-08T22:30:00.000-08:00

It's only the beginning of 2012 and I wanna say : " screw you 2012!"

2012 has been very unkind to me. VERY. VERY . UNKIND.

I dont believe that the world will end in 2012 but wouldn't it be wonderful if 2012 is the end of the world?

Last day of 2011

2011-12-31T11:30:00.000-08:00

Last day of 2011, Congrats!! WE SURVIVED!

I went for 1 for 1 exchange phone ytd.

Backup-ed my phone and I was really proud of it.

And then when I back it up with my new phone. I click the wrong button?

soo.... I don't have any contacts right now!

UGH! FML!

While typing all this shit! I am supposed to be completing all my work!

And I am heading out of my house in an hour!

Seriously? How am I able to complete it. FML again

I should have done it ytd.

But I fell aslp around 10+ pm till 10+am!

Great job huh?

Ugh! Maybe if I didnt babysit my nephews, I might be able to complete it.

But forget it! No use ranting now.

Way to go on the last day of 2012!

And hope 2012 is better for me and everyone!

Live, laugh, Love

2011-12-28T08:14:00.000-08:00

Give life to all but live for one.

Give laugh to all but smile to one.

Give love to all but heart to one.

Last Christmas

2011-12-25T18:00:00.000-08:00

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me, baby, do you recognize me?
Well, it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying, "I love you", I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room and friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A girl undercover but you tore her apart
Maybe this year, maybe this year
I'll give it to someone special

'Cause last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

And last Christmas
And this year won't be anything like
Anything like

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
And this year to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Everything happens for a reason

2011-12-20T23:30:00.000-08:00

I haven't actually had the time to update my blogger.

2 reasons why I am not updating.

I have been really busy
Well, the first reason is definitely an excuse.

The real reason is...... I refuse to let you know what is happening in my life or what is going through my mind. And people might think: "she's not going to write anymore " and hopefully they stop reading my space over here. That means more privacy. That also means it'll be more convenient to criticise people. MUAHAHAH!

Alright I sound extremely evil . but I'm just kidding... *insert innocent-looking face*

I have been observing people, things and surroundings. I look at how people change, how things change & how the surroundings change. Until now, I still believe that change is the only thing constant. Nobody or Nothing stays the same. For now, my thoughts are full of all the things I had yet to see and do and all the time I would stop to pause my footsteps & then move on again to make sure every steps I take is the correct decision. If I were to twist and walk the wrong way, I wouldn't be careless enough to let it happen again.

I am not those kind of people who would buzzed and mumbled " why does it happen to me. why oh why" because I have accepted this philosophy- " everything happens for a reason" in my life, if without hard times, how would we ever realize our true strength or greatest potential? It's only through a time of suffering when we realize how strong we truly are inside before we eventually break. Each experience we go through in life is a lesson to be learned. It isn't my fault for believing everything happens for a reason. I just feel that some things are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. There has to be some holes in the road, some cracks in the universe, because we all make mistakes & that's how life is.

Anyway, Christmas is coming really soon.

Have a great christmas celebration!

your soul of ice, a fire in my heart

2011-12-20T22:30:00.000-08:00

the one that got away

2011-12-17T05:29:00.000-08:00

why our time never match

2011-12-13T05:21:00.000-08:00

caught it many months back but Im still watching the same scene again and again...

(the scrapbook scene and the ending scene)

Movie you should catch is- the crazy thing called love(above), you are the apple of my eye

Drama you should watch- chinese paladin

gong shuo xin yu

bu bu jing xin

If you don't decide to live for something, you'll end up dying for nothing

2011-12-03T22:03:00.000-08:00

lao ban soya bencurd to make you feel hungry the moment you see this pic. *cheeky smile*

see my big patch of reddish purple bruise T.T It hurts TTM!

This is like only 1/3 of everything I did this week. I carried all those stack of books. So now. lemma tell you how did I get that big patch of bruise. See that stack of book? yea. It landed on my leg...it's about more than 3kg?

Say hi to my colleague! Who's also my classmate, Yazmin:D

We don't really talk in class but now I know her much better.

Yes! Congratulate us for ending our internship! WOOO YAYYYYY!!!!

I guess without Ariel and Yazmin, my whole internship experience would be extremely horrible. Really love them for being my colleagues:)

Desserts!!!! Had my farewell lunch at MAD JACK! My grilled fish was totally awesome TTM

Okay, I know you must be thinking what's that weird thing on my lip. HAHAHA! It's my fever blister.

It's actually gone now because I've recovered.(pic taken few days back)

A mini outing with layting and yuingwei^^

My sibeh sian face.

That's becos my fever blister just started.

Bought an organiser for 2012 at the bookfest!!!

Kids surrounding a man...

Muahahahs! His drawing a dinosaur!!!!

That made me decide to buy faber castel colour markers.

Look at his drawing.

I am extremely impressed with his drawing that I asked him to draw a fish and dinosaur for me*grin grin*

Bought all those files for office use.

Was fascinated with the popular trolley.

Say hello to my favourite drink, ribenaaaaaa!!!!!!!

HAHAHHA! A ribena a day, keeps your sadness away.

A drink that makes me feel good all the time.

OMG! Waiting for 20 mins during peak hour is totally ridiculous! SMRT or SBS CAN YOU LIKE LOOK AT THIS PLEASE?!?! THE BUS FREQUENCY WAS SUPPOSED TO BE 5-6 MINS DURING PEAK HOUR. NOW PLEASE DO SOMETHING TO IT!!!

Oh yes monsoon season naooooooooo! weather is unpredictable all the time.

ay ay ay~ under my umbrella~ hahaha!

Joey's birthday celebration (cui & shag day)

say real this special sofa is really dam comfy, I can fall aslp within seconds

We'll miss you when you're in Aussie!

Us at qy's house.

Joey! muack muack muackzxzx!

Laytinggggg *insert heart shape*

Muahaahaha!

Our driver, Serene Ng *applause*

Hiak hiak! Us in the car

Bottoms up!

Cannot forget about the Price Tag

2011-11-22T06:26:00.001-08:00

I have been thinking about money money & money...

I AM NOT MONEY FACE HOR!!

Just that I wanna buy alot of things and go alot of places!

How about an adventure to tioman island myself.......

Ughhhhh~! excited !!! okay okay I am very motivated to earn money now!

*cracking my head for business plan*

"It’s not about the money, money, money

We don’t need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag"

Sorry! I think It's all about the money money money

no money no talk:(

no money no FOOD

no food how to make the world dance?!

no money no RIBENA:(

no money buy what sai you tell me?!

Seriously, how to forget about price tag when everything has price tag+GST(7%) in SG-.-

GO EARN MONEY LIAO. kthxbye!

a series of unexpected event

2011-11-19T04:49:00.000-08:00

Too dark:( Shall take a nicer picture with her next time^^

A failed friday outing that turned a little havoc

Spending my off day & weekends really wisely....

Anyway I dyed my hair. Not very obvious but yea.. it is reddish brown:)

Stop caring about people's life more that yours

2011-11-16T22:41:00.000-08:00

People are more interested in others life than their own.

You want evidence?

Facebook.

Why is facebook a hit?

That's because we care about people's life more than ours.

But why?

Do you enjoy seeing people screwing up their life or do you enjoy seeing people having a good time? Or maybe we want to read people's thoughts so as to feel more superior? Just like YOU reading my thoughts?! But whatever it is, MY LIFE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU!

I came to a conclusion that People don't want to face what is going on in there life, so they like to distract themselves with other people's life.

Wish there isn't weekdays

2011-11-13T14:17:00.000-08:00

Just woke up to have my lunch with daddyyyyyyy!!! ^^

It looks as if I applied blusher but nope! I didn't apply anything! This is my bare face:)

Forever & Always

2011-11-10T21:08:00.000-08:00

A depressing song to end the day

Your happy ending

2011-11-07T22:32:00.000-08:00

When I get upset, I shut down. I feel like I should be crying, screaming, shouting or something more violent that what a normal human being would do. But I can't because I turned off my own humanity. Agony, pain, sorrow, anger or whatever kind of emotions it may be, I just don't want to feel a thing. I haven't lost my sanity, all I ever wanted was to be left alone. I'll go silent. I won't speak. I'll just sit there, and think.

Where's your soul?

2011-11-06T23:39:00.000-08:00

I hate All Soul Day. The moment when you see people tear. The moment when people are at their weakest. The moment when you feel helpless not knowing what you can do to help. The moment you know that the people you've losted will never be back. for good.

hehehe loving my natural blush^^ & me trying to learn how to apply falsies

And he that brings a sunny day will find a sunny day waiting for him.

2011-11-04T22:24:00.000-07:00

Will you keep going without knowing the way?

October ended

2011-11-03T21:53:00.000-07:00

Thank you matt leo for the treat!!! It's the best dinner I've ever eaten.

MOF is awesome! go eat go eat!!

I forgot to mention how I spent my birthday!!!

Had an extremely short "party" with my girls.

Jian huang and me spent our birthdays tgt with our favourite pple at sentosa

Really had loads of fun.

There are people who actually surprised me because I'd never expect something from them.

Thank you every soul who play a part in my life. including anyone who wished me.

I appreciate everyone of you^^

I failed at dressing up for halloween because I did not expect halloween to be such a blast.

The costumes people wore were pretty impressive.

I had never seen such cool customes in my entire life.

It's a pity that I did not capture the entire experience for you guys to see.

with many wants

2011-10-30T20:51:00.000-07:00

SUP FOLKS! Alot of you told me you all haven't seen me for ages. hehehe. HERE I AM!!!! STARE longer! Maybe you'll never get to see me ever again. Maybe my life is short and I can't live till tmr. HAHAHA! kidding~! CHOY CHOY CHOY!! Touchwood! I think I will live quite long. Firstly, I am extremely healthy. Secondly, I've done alot of good deeds *smirk* Thirdly, I treat people well. Lastly, I AM A HAPPY PERSON. HAHAHA! But I don't want to live too long. I want to die at the age of....maybe seventy five? Because I will still be physically strong:) Imagine yourself dying at the age of 100. You'd be either suffering from a cancer or sitting on a wheelchair. What kind of misery will you be facing man. HAHAHA! In conclusion, I just want to die young, healthy and pretty^^
Do I look like a vampire? *grin* I want to be a vampire!!!! I like the idea of running faster than normal people without feeling tired. I like the idea of not aging at all. I like the idea of compelling people and having a life the way I want it to be. I like the idea of having supernatural power, using them to kill the evils. I like the idea of turning off my humanity. HAHAHA! Too much of vampire diaries, and (twilight, new moon, eclipse).
Yuppie my spoilt brat nephew. Sometimes his annoying and sometimes his annoyingly cute.
He thinks his a king by treating my headband as a crown.
Life is *fill in the blank*

Some pictures for you to admire just in case you miss me^^ hehehe. okay I know I am soooooo bhb now. But who cares * roll eye*

Goodnight everybirdeeee~!!! With lotsa lotsa lotsa love by one and only sweetest lulu in the world:)

Imprint your heart

2011-10-29T20:54:00.000-07:00

Imprinting on someone

is like when u see her, everything changes.

All of a sudden, it is not gravity holding you to the planet.

it's her.

nothing else matters

You'd do everything, be anything for her

-eclipse (i think so)

hopes

2011-10-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

Really busy week! OT 3 times a week O.O

Event is tmr and I hope it will be a successful one

Grew up way too fast

2011-10-14T20:40:00.000-07:00

I wish I don't have to grow up, because the moment I think about stepping into the society, I know there'll be a drastic change in my life. I dont want to become a robotic worker who will be desk bound for 9 whole hours everyday. I don't want to do something I don't like to do just because it is what I am supposed to do.

In future, we need to earn a living so that we can … buy things (including entertainment). Including a car, which is needed to go to work and to shop. We need to send our kids to school, so we don’t need to worry about them when we work, and so that they can grow up to be a good and useful person. Everything needs money and everything is about money. Doesn't that make us more materialistic than we were before? What if we put benefits and money at the forefront of everything? Will we end up buying fast food and convenience food just because we need to stay ahead of others? Will we be too busy or tired from work to have a proper meal for ourselves?

Somewhere along the line, we might allow ourselves to be sidetracked from what’s important when we start working. you know what it is- people. Yes. What does it feels like to be disconnected from friends and family? Will we lost our laughter because we drown ourselves with work and ONLY work? Life doesn't sound meaningful anymore.

The cycle

2011-10-11T20:11:00.000-07:00

Every Morning I'm like

Lunch time I'm like

After Lunch I'm like ^^

When I got a call from someone nasty while working

When It's time to go home

I'm like finally able to look at my phone

And right after dinner...

Those moments

2011-10-10T00:20:00.000-07:00

If you miss me...you can't text, you can't e-mail, you can't post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me

2011-10-09T08:00:00.000-07:00

I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, emailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?

It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. “Hello?” Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.

Now we exchange numbers but text instead of calling because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds.”It was NICE meeting u” Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back? Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear 2 care, but not 2 much.

If all goes well, a date will be arranged

Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what it really good for?

There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it’s safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that’s not male behavior, I don’t know what is. It’s also great for passing notes. there is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover’s car.

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. in some ways, it’s no different than sending flowers to the office: You are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn’t like to be publicly adored. Just remember that what you post is out there and there’s some stuff you can’t un-see. But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There’s no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.

We haven’t lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a hand-written letter is greater than ever. It’s personal and deliberate means more than an email or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it’s flawed There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It’s the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say,

This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.
-Ashton Kutcher

a special day to feel special

2011-10-06T13:38:00.000-07:00

Hope everyone is getting used to SIP and not getting too stressed out over it. Well I'm trying my best to cope with my stress. Work seems to love appearing in my sleep pretty often lately. That's no good no good. beli beli bad... It's like I got so tired from all the work in the day and work doesn't even want to let me rest at night, come hunting me in my sleep. Ugh!!! God, Save me!

Anyway my birthday is coming very soon? 2 weeks time from now. *hint hint* *wink wink* I'm not a fan of occasions but birthday is the only day you feel special. sooooo why not?! My present is always the easiest to find among all my friends and this year is no exception.

Hear comes my special birthday wishlist in order!

1. I want a sony cybershot digital camera so damn badly!

Quite desperate for it. HAHAHA! The S series which is the most affordable one. It doesn't have to be the latest range for example, DSC-W110/S

I have the Casio Exilim, 14.1 megapixel camera which is god damn clear. I really hate my camera because my friends doesn't want their pimples to be clearly seen which also means I will never use my camera. So I want to use a camera that I'll use often!

Okay this wishlist is really out of question because it's really expensive! So here comes a more reasonable and something which excites me more.....

2. I want PLENTY of dresses!

Why dresses? you must be thinking this lulu trying to be funny want act yi ge feminine ?! YES! I ammmmmmmm!!! HAHAHAH ! Since SIP started, I need to wear dress and skirts everyday, I need to get used to wearing dresses and skirts!!! Please please don't buy me formal dresses because I want a dress where I can wear it for outings too. So the dress should be quite casual! Super casual also can! (as casual as beach wear also can) Just in case you don't know what's my favourite colour!!! It's bright/ light blue, light pink, WHITE and black. It doesn't have to be atas atas brand like topshop, zara, mango or whatever brand you can think of. Brand-less will do, that also means more dresses. Hiak Hiak Hiak! Oie don't anyhow choose uh! Please hor at least suit me! Don't buy dresses that makes me look like a pregnant lady or someone from a tribal family. I like things that is simple and plain. not so fanciful! Don't suka suka anyhow get me a dress that makes me ZOMG. thanks!

3. Make up

You all know what I apply on my face so just get me something simple like mascara? or ( fill in the blank if you know what I like ) Don't give me one black black eyeshadow ( I didnt get a punch on my face) or some red lipstick ( I don't need a red lipstick to look seductive, because I am oredi very seductive. wahahahahas) Don't even buy face powder for me! I will never use it in my entire life. ( It's not like I need it for some opera show)

Yup that's all for my birthday present wishlist!! You can get something that is not on my wishlist because whatever you give will be something precious to me. Since my wishlist is pretty simple! no. extremely simple. Please include a love proclamation on how great a friend I have been. No idea what is that?! Hmm... A wooden board that pins up all our pictures/A scrapbook with all our pictures/anything sentimental.

As for celebration, just a simple day with you people will do because you people are the most important people of my life! If there is really really a need to go to a special place I am suggesting......................................................................................

A trip to Singapore railway track or Singapore grassy grassy place

The story of us

2011-10-01T22:30:00.000-07:00

Sexy pose;)

Cycle cycle...

I love to admire the scenery. GODDAMN NICE RIGHT?! It's taken at east coast park!!! If only I'm in the picture. wasted sia! LOL

This two very shiok after eating

Stone-ing...

Very busy eating huh

Lonelyandlostboy92. WAHAHAHAH!

Emo boy cos of his Mcflurry. HAHAHAH!

Tsktsk!

Chun ying who u admiring huh?

My friends last warning sia! Spam what'sapp only -.- but I can't use my phone when I work T.T

My Prada bag that my mum got for me from ROME! wakeke!

Before I sleep! I don't have a life ever since SIP started. It's like work home sleep work home sleep. NO LIFE MANNNNNN!

I give up! no matter how i try to tilt it, it will never be upright. Must be sth wrong with this photo! hahaha!

I like to see the ball moves

Aiming

TCC and shopping

2011-10-01T21:56:00.000-07:00

Welcome to TCC

Chocolate espresso...

Some peanut drink which is quite nice

Some fruity drink which is quite sweet.

Chocolate cake, Joel's order

Forgot what cake! Fiona's order

Cheesecake, Jingsen's order

My yogurt strawberry. Don't really like it cos I don't like yogurt

One more strawberry cake for me! DAM nice! yummy yummy!

Wakekekekekeke ^^

Hello joel.hahaha!

The most annoying person on earth

Sweet right?

The woman I like to shop with

Yup this is the end of our SIP shopping

difficulty

2011-10-01T21:11:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I really hate that everytime I am about to bring down my walls. Something happens. Then I tell myself that I should never bring them down. Not even a lil bit. Becos if I did, I'd lost my mind. I am a pathetic pussy. I am afraid all the time. I am afraid of being hurt. I am afraid of hurting people. I want a situation where no one is hurt at all. No matter how much a person mean to me, I tell myself to never tear those walls down. And no matter what kind of situation I am in. I runaway. Yes I admit. I like to run away. run away from things I don't want to face. runaway from things I don't want to feel. Because most of the time I am not sure how to really feel... People walk in and out of my life. They thought I don't feel a thing. They were wrong. I don't forget things easily. Yes to you reading this, I remember every little things you said or did. I appreciate you if you treat me well. I don't treat you for granted. I forgive you if you treat my feelings for granted. But that doesn't mean you can ignore my feelings all the time. Because It's difficult to pretend something is okay if whatever u said/did is mean/hurtful.

Once in a lifetime

2011-09-27T22:57:00.000-07:00

Our very excited face!
Layting! you're supposed to smile! not spoil the picture
Layting wants to show u her clip-.- And hello~! yw what kind of face is that huh?
Lay ting!!! last warning !!! your face can maintain not?!?!?!?!?!
i think it's a failed heart shape?
yup! that's what we do when we wait for PEOPLE to finish pooping
Joeyyyyyyyy!
Fantastic! the lady took a perfect photo with the universal word at the right time, position and angle!
Sorry folks! it's kinda blur
I SWEAR THIS IS THE BIGGEST PIZZA I HAVE EVER EATEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!
Qinying, Liqing and Joey!
Time to camwhore again. why? because our dear brave, mad, insane girls were addicted with roller coaster rides!
They took more than 10 roller coaster rides i think. They got obsessed with cyclon(blue, 360 degree) and human(red, idk how many degree)
I tried both of them. SAY REAL IT'S EXTREMELY SCARY! Cyclon is seriously OH MY MAMA! I cant believe I actually took all those roller coaster rides on that day. OMGGGGGG!
Wait, waiting, waited.
YUP I had a good time at USS! Now, it's your turn to go;)

Times doesn't wait

2011-09-25T19:29:00.000-07:00

The day I had natural blush.hohoho! simple, average and ordinary me.

me in bath robe right after the last paper with 13 of us in a hotel!

The two cheryls:)

Having fun with the bath robe.Hahaha!

UGH! I miss APG like hell during SIP! Oh mannnnnnn.

Ohya I played mahjong one whole night with grace yw theron Bchai and jia hao that day! xiexie shifu yw! ;););););)

Back to the times when there's nine of us

2011-09-23T21:14:00.000-07:00

Ghim, misses from singapore to florida

Qinying, misses from singapore to china

And soon misses from me to joey in australia

Yes i miss everyone of youuuuuuuuuuuu!!!

Last Dineer with ghim!!

Back to Liqing's birthday

cutest thing

2011-09-22T21:37:00.000-07:00

yellow chick, blue owl white rabbit and pink pig

Extremely cute right?!?!?!?!?!?

Love my key chains!!

some games are not meant to be played

2011-09-21T22:39:00.000-07:00

Im tired of the games people play

A game I will not entertain

tell you something you don't already know

2011-09-17T17:05:00.000-07:00

Tell you something really unique about myself....

I am rarely bored. like seriously.

Even If I stayed at home and do nothing, I'll never get bored.

Even if I stone for hours, I'll never get bored.

Okay it sounds like I've got nothing better to do -.-

Nahhhhhhh! Actually I've got way too many things to do but If I had nothing to do...I swear I'll never get bored. And because I dont get bored, I dont use the word "sian" or rather hate the word "sian" so if you're someone who use the word "sian" way way way too often, please try not to use it in front of me because I find it rather annoying.

we love friday more and more

2011-09-16T11:14:00.000-07:00

I refuse to update any pictures of myself.

I refuse to apply make up.

I refuse to dress up even during holidays

HAHAHA! Nothing is wrong. Just for once I want to look cui for a long period of time? -.-

But ever since SIP started, dressing up and applying make up is a must.

Sighhhh...

I guess waking up early is the biggest challenge I face every single day *frown*

SIP is so tiring that I can just KO before 10pm.

I cant talk much about SIP here as I am restricted by school rules.

Just know that I love SIP because Im a workaholic but hate the waking up early part.

Okay! shall upload pictures when I am ultra free! Have a great weekend!

想念,等待

2011-09-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

想念,等待是世上最痛苦的折磨

a second not forgotten

2011-09-02T21:51:00.000-07:00

HEEEEHAHHHH~!!! 2 papers down!

Papers were pretty manageable although I fell aslp during the paper! WTS right?!

Anyway, I am addicted to games recently because I needed them to release stress.

Recommendations: Kartrider, angry bird, tiny tower, zynga poker and ninjump!!!

I feel very pressurized when certain people treat me nicer than what they are supposed to treat me. Im sorry If I seemed indifferent but I am just like that. People need to know that sometimes I don't like to talk. WAIT A MINUTE! I AM NOT SOMEONE WITH AUTISM! HAHAHA! I am just a lil more anti social than before? Whatever it is, just don't treat me too nice ......

You got me fooled for a second,

I thought we had a moment.

Until now, you're never forgotten

Two is better than one, but I say one is enough

2011-09-01T06:32:00.000-07:00

Have been wearing home clothes everywhere I go. LOL! no longer care about image or unglam-ness anymore. Wait since when I ever bothered. HAHAHA! But nowadays I really lack massive sleep T.T always sleeping after 4am or even much later. Well, I wasn't really mugging like it's the end of the world. I got my friends to stayover at my place so I won't fall asleep. Okay sent ghim off few days back at 5am and all of us cried as though we'll never see her again. Ghim, I will definitely miss you every single day!! I have more than 4 friends' birthday falling during exam periods. I feel so sorry for them that they have to study on their birthday. Btw, I've been experiencing that for 17 years of my life. Does that make you feel better? I hope so. hahah! Don't worry people, your dear lulu didn't forget! I will definitely have a greater time after exams instead of burning out and suffering now. Yea so holiday please come soon! Studying is seriously a torture man!

Everything is not the same anymore.

end of the world

2011-08-31T06:25:00.000-07:00

Hope everyone don't study until want to die. Have a break! Have a good laugh!

recommended my super annoying friend chua jingsen:)

love who I am before now after

2011-08-28T02:25:00.000-07:00

Somehow I think my life had a drastic change. My friends and people around me are still the same. But the one changing is me. With all the stay-overs, night talks and some htht sessions with different groups of friends, I feel different. amazing. great. They asked me how what why I've become what I've become and all I did was shrug my shoulders and gave the most angelic smile I can ever give. If you haven't notice any change in me then maybe you don't know me well enough:)

when I smile, people seem to smile.

play hard study hard eat hard

2011-08-27T01:01:00.000-07:00

Hello! remember my face!! and ghim you NEED to rmb my face! Im gonna miss u for 6 MONTHS! OMG!!!

Coconut juice is the best drink on this kind of warm and humid weather.

Yayyyy! crabsss!! okay... i didnt really take a very nice shot cos I was too excited to eat it.

And ytd crabs again!!

This is what happen to our crabs!!

Anyway went to skypark and took some night scenary!

Snaps! studying with dillon. he doesn't know I took it.hahah! And btw everyone stop trying to crack my phone password! I've been constantly changing my password until sometimes I can't even rmb my password anymore;(

My favourite banana muffin at starbucks! Try the coffee bean banana muffin too!

Some pictures with joey and ghim

Joey! last warning! ahahah!

LOL ghim!!!

Study period means lots and lots of food

Zuming @#$%& whole day bully me only

Side effect of studying? just woke up btw.

One paper down!! 3 more to gooooo!!!

For a better reason

2011-08-24T12:11:00.000-07:00

God puts people in your life for a reason, and removes them from your life for a better reason.

离开你我才发现自己

2011-08-23T16:30:00.000-07:00

如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流了泪
当一个人看旧电影
是我不小心而已
离开你我才找回我自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见到你
我一定让自己让自己坚定
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流过泪

can't help singing this over and over again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR @feeonnah

don't play play

2011-08-19T23:20:00.000-07:00

WAHHHH!!!! One more week to exams :'((((

Need to stop fooling around already!!

Time to be serious!! SAY REAL!!

If you're staying the same and doing the same everyday,

you're really not living. Life is mainly about growth and changes.

No more teardrops on my guitar

2011-08-15T21:42:00.000-07:00

Ohya! I forgot to mention that my lappy is fixed!!!!!

Which also means all my files are gone including those that I wanted to keep.

Maybe a blessing in disguise? Because maybe without them, I could get over faster?

Btw I passed my BTT few weeks back :DDDDD

Lazy Sunday

2011-08-14T17:16:00.000-07:00

MIA-ed for awhile but I managed to spent time with quite alot of my friends recently. HAPPY!!!! So... I just update a little about my life but there's still a lot more which I don't think I have time to mention ...

My classmates!!

Starting :)

Waited 2hrs while taking care of Panasonic SANYO bikes for my class event

End up :( becos too many insects were biting me T.T

Anyway our event was a success ytd at sentosa!!!

HAHAH! love joey!

plus grace too :D

flower balloon!!

fascinated with it.

Helped with layting's push cart in school this week!and I went to accompany her whenever Im free

Support her by buying four rings from her

This is the special bike-battery operated

If you're hungry right now, I suggest u don't scroll down!

These are from our goodie bags!

sweets O.O

cakes

strawberry pocky, one of my fave snack

I think I ate more than 3 crabs! HAHAH!

Steamboat and BBQ tonight!!! WHOOOO~!!!

innocence

2011-08-12T21:48:00.000-07:00

Babies are the purest form of human. I wish I am a baby again, the only time where it isn't wrong to be innocent.

full of emotions

2011-08-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

I'd be happy for the entire day if people treat me nice!

After lesson Im like that.HAHAHA!

Sometimes I wish I'm some superhero receiving applause from everyone.

I'm quite emotional, I'll cry if I see my friends cry.

When someone/my alarm wakes me up

When I know I'm not musically talented

I wish I can be violent and hit peope who are mean legally.

I really can't sit still...

This is what happen if you dont get enough sleep.

I want to watch this! please please pleaseeeeee!!!

addicted to this song! have been playing on repeat for a week!

HAve a good day tmr!

TGIF! TGIF! TGIF! HEEEEEHAHHHHHHH~!

To love is to be vulnerable.

2011-08-10T19:47:00.000-07:00

People talk about how great love is, their feelings most of all, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. To love at all is to be vulnerable. Your heart will go wrong and it ends up broken. If you want to keep it intact you must give it to no one, build the highest wall you can ever build. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries, avoid any entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness where it will be safe, motionless and well protected. It will become unbreakable and impenetrable

no questions, no answers

2011-08-09T23:04:00.000-07:00

Do not seek answers, which cannot be given because some questions are meant to be unsolved. And the point is, to live everything without questions now. Perhaps you will find asnwers gradually, without noticing it or along noticing it.

Giving up was never in my dictionary

2011-08-07T22:28:00.000-07:00

Quite messed up recently and I felt like Im buried by too many undone work or task.
Im like fighting for time almost every min every secs?
but things are getting better and better *insert sweet smiling emoticon*
HAHAHAH!
Right now Im supposed to be rushing my report but I choose to have some time for myself to rant whatever I wish to rant? I just felt that I have been experiencing way TOO MANY things at one go and I am really impressed with how I embrace everything. But enough is never enough. There are still many more things for me to learn and experience in future. Yup so jiayou to myself! Stay positive and stay strong!

Somehow being a little weak isn't a bad thing after all because a person can never stay strong forever. Everyone needs a break. Soooooo can I bring forward my holidays *insert eager face*

Don't leave us in despair

2011-08-02T23:59:00.000-07:00

wtf?!?!?! Today is august 2nd alrdy. okay! slowwww-.-

OMGGGG!!! SOOOOO FASTTTTTT!!!

Few more weeks and it's end sem alrdy!

I have not even started studying T.T

Basically, our class is having major issues with the module CEM. We are not even sure if our event will work out because we couldn't get underprivileged children to come for our Panasonic event! This module is extremely tedious and tiring! Initially, we had seriously tight budget then location problem then budget for tentage then shirt pricing then the whole programme then the goodie bags, back to venue again and back to programme again and venue again and programme and now CHILDREN!! THEY ARE SO FUCKING HARD TO FIND! I think our class search almost all the children organization around the entire Singapore already! The amt of emails we sent. the amt of calls we made. The amt of rejection replies. I think we are really going bonkers! We got really desperate and started visiting some organizations, pri schools and sec schools. I had a freaking hard time trying to find the entrance of schools. Well it's not easy running under the fucking hot sun and getting rejections after talking to people in charge from organizations. The experience is totally not pleasant! Having blisters all over is not funny. Perspiring like a dog and walking around like some mad girl is definitely not cool. Esp the experience of almost felling into a drain. UGH!! I was like thinking why all the tutors think our class is up for it?! yea! thanks for all the recommendations and we are suffering like mad. So if our event doesn't work out and we fail our module. WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO?! TELL US?! And Panasonic %$#@& . okay I cant scold the organization here. I dont want to get sued.AHAHAH! Dejection leads to anger. Absolutely not my fault for being angry with everyone and everything. Now, I really hope my tutor Lilian Khoo knows the amt of hardwork we put in although there is no progress yet. I think we work better without the presence of Lilian Khoo. That makes her think that we are not trying becos we are not responding to her questions almost all the time. Maybe she's quite intimidating? Or maybe her questions are really hard to answer becos i personally don't know how to respond to her sometimes. Really thankful that she made a call to some schools and there's a slightly positive respond this evening. PLEASE MAKE IT WORK PLEASE MAKE IT HAPPEN! GIVE US A LITTLE HOPE PLEASEEEEE! WE CROSS OUR FINGERS AND PRAY REALLY REALY HARD!

All the gods that exist in the world please save us! help us! Don't leave us in despair. Thank you we will appreciate your kindness.

Good Luck for our presentation tmr.

LAST PRESENTATION!! JIAYOUUUUUU APG!!

Confusing emotions

2011-08-01T22:49:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I don't even know how do I even feel

When I'm sad, I laugh
When I'm normal, I smile
When I'm angry, I cry

Weird right?

The reason why I laugh when I'm sad is...I'm laughing at my stupidity and at the same time I laugh to hide my emotions. I never want people to see me sad. I smile because I'm born to brighten people's life! When I'm angry, I don't know how to vent my anger and I don't want to hurt anyone feelings so I cry?

LOL!!!
I must be the weirdest human on earth-.-

#Randomthoughts
#blogwithphone

The beautiful past and present

2011-07-30T01:59:00.000-07:00

Do remember to support my friends. The website is http://theinkedroses.blogspot.com

Have not been blogging recently because my laptop crashed. using grace laptop now:DDD Did you notice a red spot on my lip? It was supposed to be some blister or ulcer and it bleeds after i rubbed salt on it. RAWR! Can you imagine the pain I went through? ZOMG!!!

I look so mature in this picture right? #likeahappy only.HAHAHA!I seriously need to stop laughing and smiling too much! LOL! Getting more and more crinkles T.TWent to clothes buffet last week with fiona and pris last sat! The reason why I am blogging this is because I find this clothes buffet concept pretty cool and interesting. HAHAHA! I definitely had fun squeezing the items into the carrier. And I am sure all girls are interested in this kind of events ;)

cruel intentions

2011-07-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

I love having time for myself, lying on my bed,staring at the ceiling.

I start to think.

And sometimes I overthink.

I think about you. I think about your lies, your empty promises, and how you erased me from your life like I have never existed. Not even a "sorry" a "goodbye" or any explaination and all I could do was accept your cruel intentions that left an enormous scar in my heart and soul.

Yea. I think about almost everything. It's like a never ending cycle that keeps playing and I hate that I still repeat the words u said on my head over and over again.

Your apology to make it right

2011-07-10T16:35:00.000-07:00

Even if

2011-07-09T01:09:00.000-07:00

Even if you don't mention things, people will mention them for you.

Even if you don't hate those who've hurt you, people will hate them for you.

And my all time favourite music for you to relax your mind before you go to bed:)

laugh, love, and live everyday like it’s your last

2011-07-07T06:07:00.000-07:00

I laugh at my own jokes even though sometimes people don't find it funny at all.HAHAHA

When there are projects and submissions. I PANIC!

Oh I love shopping! It makes me happy for days:D That special happiness you get from buying something you like. hehehe. Bought 2 tops and shorts.WOOHOOOOO~

Anyway, the most important thing a person must have is a smile because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. Have a great day tmr because tmr is FRIDAY!!!! Goodnight folks!

answers come when we stop asking

2011-07-06T22:25:00.000-07:00

Whatever life gives u,

even if it hurts you,

just be strong and act like the way you always do.

because strong walls just shake but never collapse:)

my life summary

2011-07-05T20:20:00.000-07:00

People won't be able to call through and you can't use your phone for an hour.Good Evening! I am still very in love with blue.My crane:DDD

This one look like ghost.

fiona and joel playing games
Dillon, the zai one!
Joel uh, focus leh.hahaha
Fiona so cute with her hoodie.hehe
And poor me who had to study for test
Curry pok, best for tea time
It's called bee hoon kway i think. best for lunch!
oyster spagetti from TCC. Best for dinner!!
Best for breaks
Best for breakfast.

no time to relax your mind and soul

2011-07-02T14:10:00.000-07:00

Haizx my groupmates uh! one busy sms-ing. one busy fb-ing
Holding pen doesn't mean doing work. Don't be deceive;)
No idea what his thinking.
Sian TTm. HAHAHA!

WOOHOO!

I survived from a test and 2 assignment submissions

didn't sleep for a day. 24 hours. ZOMG!

load on my shoulder is so much so much so much lighter.HELL YEAH!

so now GOD you need to bless me for my next test and projects next week.

Yea my whole life revolves around projects projects and projects.

HOW INTERESTING ~

Anyway GSS is here again!!!!!!

Girls! pick up your baskets and start grabbing!

But do some financial planning and make sure you don't overspent!

xoxo

Have a great weekend before school becomes another nightmare again;)

Going to school like a living zombie every single day.

2011-06-29T02:21:00.000-07:00

This week is way too stressful * frown*

I feel like dying. dying of exhaustion. ZOMG!! ZOMG!!! ZOMG!!!! school has ONLY started for 2 days. And going to school seems like a suicide mission!

I am dreading school all thanks to projects, tests, assignments, exams and MASSIVE SLEEP DEPRIVATION.

GAHHHH!!! I need to sit on a swing at my nearest playground desperately!

Jiayou to myself!!! *throw pom pom*

Not giving up so easily

I am good at hiding feelings

2011-06-27T22:07:00.000-07:00

Hi, holiday has ended :( NOOOOOOOOoooooo~!~!~!

Well, I did spend my pretty-short-holiday wisely

Not gonna elaborate cos Im totally not in a mood right now.

Monday is way too blue today.

Not a very good day to begin with and not a very good day to end with

Feeling demoralized and dejected, I just hope tomorrow is gonna be a better day for me.

Everytime I had a bad day, I'll always tell myself that and It is quite helpful.

I forgot what It feels like to cry your hearts out. I forgot what It feels like to be sad. I forgot what It feels like to love someone. Am I becoming way too strong until I've become an emotionless freak? Sometimes I wonder how I went through all the bullshits. And the shocking thing is, I won't shed a tear, not even a single sign of sadness.

Why am I so strong?

How did I become so strong?

Isn't it suppose to be a good thing?

NO!

Being strong is tiring. It is probably the most horrifying thing.

And today I just want to be weak and vulnerable.

Like for once I am human. someone with feelings

Sometimes the only choice you have is to take a deep breath, smile and pretend

It's not about how others look at me, it's about how i look at myself

2011-06-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

Things I am really good at

Pushing people away
Forgetting to reply texts
Eating food
Sleeping
Being sick

I just love holidays! How I wish holiday can extend for one more week.

Who cares what people think,

just be who you are and say what you feel

because those who mind don't matter

and those who matter don't mind.

blue obsession

2011-06-17T18:48:00.000-07:00

What's with me and blue?!?!?!

Recently, I am obsessed with blue.

rewind bits by bits

2011-06-16T23:44:00.000-07:00

Timbre last night!

The day i just cut my fringeThis is chun ying and she has never appeared on my blog before:)

My nephew jared dam zi lian. he knows how to pose sia!

HAHAHA ghim!
My dad not ready to take picture.
Happy Birthday to my nephews
NEW DISCOVERY! I got a hidden dimple! can u see can u see?!?!

HOLIDAY'S HERE!!!!
hehehe!
Just bath and getting ready to study for my paper at home:) (last week)
Before my test T.T

Yes welcome to festive hotel! went there to celebrate serene's birthday 2 weeks ago. I just went last week again because my sis in law booked a room for my nephews' birthday! If you're curious, one room is 800++ inclusive of 2 USS tickets if you book in advance. If you book too late, It'd be more expensive. For USS ticket, there wont be any discount during June(peak period), It'll $72 per person. And chili's grill and bar restaurant at resort world is dam yummy! It'd be really worth the money if you have kids! Why?! For every main course you get one kids meal free. If you love popcorns, try caramel/cheese popcorn at resort world.

Me and fiona doing our tutorial 2 week ago

Girl who can't sit still

2011-06-06T18:25:00.000-07:00

When i tried to study, I'm like...

When there are too many questions i don't know how to solve

When i can't focus for more than 5 mins and i really wish someone will entertain me

Coming back on the desk after a longgggg break and staring at the same difficult question

But i know i can't give up

I want to look like that when I got back my results

And celebrate like that when everything is over

contented

2011-06-03T01:01:00.000-07:00

My appetite is as huge as a dinosaur!

Recently, I need to eat at least 4 meals a day!

I think I spent 80% of my money on food, 15% on my friends birthday gifts and 5% on what I need. But why am I still so petite in size ? T.T

No words can describe how contented I am with my life

This is quite personal

2011-06-01T21:43:00.000-07:00

I am so lame. I am actually showing you how I look like when i just wake up -.- Please don't cua sai okay! Wondering why isit so pink? Because my room is in pink, my curtain is in pink, my pyjamas is in pink and my pig is in pink. HAHAHA! Not that i love pink, but it just happen that everything is pink. Okay! Hello people, I am currently busy and currently enjoying my fabulous life, except the part about having tests and exams.

You were born because you are going to be important to someone

reason why I let go better

2011-05-27T21:33:00.000-07:00

The only reason why i forgive people easily isn't because I am too naive or whatsoever.

I forgive people because forgiving people is being kind to myself.

You're not alone

The world is not gonna stop spinning for me

2011-05-25T22:30:00.000-07:00

Finally graduate liao;)

Love grace

Hanahana! i know u stuck with me for 3 years very ke lian la -.-
Amelia has a contagious laughter! her laughter itself makes me laugh
Didn't have a very good week but life still goes on because the world won't stop spinning for me. Extremely exhausted after submissions and presentations. Test and Exams coming up soon. way to go!!!! holiday is coming~ Speaking of holiday, I really can't wait for it to come. *jumps up and down*

ignorance is bliss or not

2011-05-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder if there is some truth to the whole “ignorance is bliss” thing.We generally assume that we will be happy for not knowing the things we would not like to know. Because once we learn something, we can’t “un-learn” it or “un-know” it. For better or for worse, we can’t pretend that we don’t know what we already know. And sometimes, knowing things (as much as we wish we didn’t) changes the way you perceive a person, a situation or even the world.

Everyone wants to stay in their own lala land because they don't want to face the reality they don’t like. I suppose people just want to hide from the uncomfortable truths of life.

monday as black as coal

2011-05-23T23:36:00.000-07:00

I hate guys who treat girls like toys, picking them up when they need them and throwing them away when they get bored. Guys just love to play with our hearts. Like as though we don't have any feelings. I hate it when they proclaim their love for you, trying their best to convince you how much you mean something to them. Then they instantly walk away from your life and start proclaiming their love for another girl when you start falling for them.

Hello, do you know how difficult it is to finally believe in something? People told me to trust, I did. In fact, all the time. But everytime they just prove to me that guys can't be trusted. We girls always hope that this time they're different. But no, they just love proving to us that they are all the SAME.

Yes today I caught myself sitting and staring with my jaw dropped wide open after discovering something really ridiculous. really absurb. In a nicer way, It is called innocent/ naive. But in a crude way, It is called DUMB. How dumb can I be?

Sometimes I wonder why I am always that dumb girl waiting. most of the time, more than a year. Because I'm hoping, always hoping. hoping that they will eventually come back to me. But they never came back. They never did. How sad right? I am tired. tired of waiting. tired of believing.

I've been good all my life, what the hell! For what? Nobody appreciates it anyway.

She comes off as strong, but maybe she fell asleep crying.

She act like nothing is wrong, but maybe she's just really good at lying.

my heart and soul

2011-05-20T23:09:00.000-07:00

With all the work

With all the projects

With all the stress

With all the small fights

With all the confusion

With all the busy schedule

I never fail to laugh(like the picture above) when I'm with my wonderful classmates and friends

They make my life complete

It's all I can ever ask for♥

bits and pieces

2011-05-19T23:05:00.000-07:00

fiona likes to listen to derrick's he wei jian's songs. And now Im currently addicted to this song. I can sing the chorus for 123456789.........40+ times! HAHAHA! I've already annoyed my classmates and gfs for singing it too many times.
$100+ gone within 2 days!awesome! I am going to be broke soon if i spent money at this rate.
Anywayzxzx i am feeling really stress. 2 presentation and 2 submission next week. Tests coming following week and MST coming:(
LULU GG.COM! NOW IM GONNA CHIONG MY TUTORIAL!

BYEEEEEE~~!!!

You think girls are complicated?

2011-05-16T23:17:00.000-07:00

When i read this i was like.

WOAH! fierce siol!

But it's true to a certain extent:)

Don't know, don't judge

2011-05-14T23:57:00.000-07:00

See that guy sobbing? His mother is dying.

See that pregnant teen? She was raped.

See that guy flirting? His just friendly

See that drunk girl in the club? Her bf cheated on her.

See that guy selling drugs? He needs to support his family

See that woman in jail? She took her husband's rap

See that happy millionaire man? His sad because money can't buy love...

etc etc etc.....

Get what Im trying to say here?

Don't judge people, you don't know their life.

Friday the 13

2011-05-13T23:59:00.000-07:00

Hello earthlings, I am finally uploading pictures of my face! Bet you all miss my face! *shy* But i don't look good in all the pictures cos I didn't bother wearing colour contacts (perfect eyesight what!!) or even draw eyeliner to school.Yup I have been a really GOOD girl ! I've printed all my lectures notes and tutorials PLUS MID SEM PAPERS for the whole entire semester on first few weeks of school. Chiongster or mugger? Whatever! I really find it extremely creepy and freaky. WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED TO ME?!?! WHY DID I CHANGE SO MUCH?!

Being able to shout out exactly what the teacher is about to write on the board definitely boost my ego -.- And being praised by a tutor for the first time ever, feels GODDAMN good. After 3 years of my poly life, I am finally motivated to do my tutorials. Today is probably the first time i actually participated in giving tutorial answers. I've never been so enthusiastic. say real. I am one of those people who keeps failing for business accounting, but now I really hope I can score well for managerial accounting. I had enough of Cs and Ds, It's time to grab more As!!!

My just wake up face before going for morning lesson:'(

Drinking KOI every week and I'll never get sick of it.I am still thinking if i should cut my fringe or not:( Anyway, i had a wonderful day with my girlfriends! Sometimes i look at them and I ask myself how did i meet all these crazy people. But what would I do without them? HAHAHA! Thank girls! i love you people alot:) Us fighting for food and food and still food is super hilarious.
Kope zuming's cap again. why is my hair not black enough ?!?! Ohya! Got the chance to meet up with Huiyi after a very very very long time. Managed to catch up pretty alot of stuff. Love the way we communicate:) I tried being funny when I'm supposed to complete this mini quiz/survey. I hope my tutor doesn't know I am the one who wrote those answers *grin grin*

This photo is actually taken 5 mins before i K.O at 5am.

Did you guys have a wonderful Friday the 13?

It's Friday btw! Have a good weekend!

I am not the same.I am special

2011-05-11T22:24:00.000-07:00

Everyone wants to share their story, No one wants to listen to people's stories.

Everyone wants to say how they feel, No one wants to know how others feel.

But i am different.

Not like any other.

I love to listen to people's stories.

I want to know how people feel.

forever my all time favourite songs

2011-05-10T23:58:00.000-07:00

Today is a good good day!

2011-05-09T08:30:00.000-07:00

I don't know what exactly happen to me.

All of a sudden, i transform into some geek/nerd?!

I don't know how to describe the extremity of me being a nerd.

But, being able to resist all kinds of temptations (name it, i am able to resist it), i must be some angel that's sent by god. LOL! say real.

Obviously not to the extent that i have no life( like not going out with my friends)

Anywayzxzxzx fast and furious 5 is sooooooo awesome!!!!

I LOVE TO WATCH MOVIE SO FREAKING MUCH!

It makes me excited. It makes me happy.

Btw, I never want to have a boyfriend who race! so dangerous pleaseeeeeeeee!

Ohya! i forgot to remove the price tag for mother's day present!!!!

wth wth wtwtwth!!

sibeh blur manzxzx :(

I love myself^^

summary

2011-05-07T20:54:00.000-07:00

Few days back, joanne peh visited our school.

But, I wasn't a fan of joanne peh so i didn't bother to find her.

HAHAHA!

Few days back, caught thor with fung yong:)

Awesome movieeeee!

I love chris hemsworth's blue eyes.

yea and natalie portman is damnit pretty!

She nabbed best actress award and best dressed celebrity in Golden Globes 2011(Black Swan)

wow! amazing right?

Kinda sad that they didn't end up together:(

My gfs never fail to make me smile:)

I love them! Thanks girls!

I've been really attentive and enthusiastic during tutorials

You know that awkward moment when the teacher asked a question and no one answered them?

And then when you said something that is what the teacher is waiting for?

Normally i behave retardedly after lectures, and my classmates were like

My friends love to tease me and I'm like

Then i realise i can't be angry for more than 5 mins.

HAHAHA!

Oh ya i bought mother's day present for my mum alrdy!

i went to shop for her present alone.hahaha.love that i am so independent^^

bought two dior eyeliner and if you have not bought anything for your mum do it quick now:)

It's sad that the one who make you stop believing in love is the exact same person who make you believe in love

2011-05-07T01:58:00.000-07:00

Yea i am fine:)

Wearing the cheerful energizer bunny mask

2011-05-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

:( i tried my best! i really did!

I sacrificed 30 mins of my sleep just to be on time for her lesson!

but i was still late for 4mins. yes freaking 4 mins. and i am considered late. FML!

Anyway, Lilian is actually quite a nice tutor.

I guess the worst tutor i ever had was ******

just by hearing her name makes me boil *frown*

Nobody actually likes her.

Noone. I swear. Not a single soul likes her.

I was utterly amazed that lilian's tutorial wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. I'm beginning to like her a lil bit more.

But obviously I've not yet overcome my fear after being taken aback by her strictness for punctuality during the very first tutorial.

I have been really noisy really high really hyper that my classmates find me extremely annoying. HAHAH!

I know you guys love me because school wouldn't be fun without me:)

*could totally imagine them rolling their eyes*

I guess today is the ONLY day KOI / Gong cha doesn't appeal to me.

Can you believe it? KOI eh! my honey milk tea! Gong cha eh! my bubble tea!

Everything that i love to eat(subway meltz) doesn't excite me anymore.

That is the worst thing that could ever happen to me.

OMGeeeeeeeeeee~

I should totally start my bloody accounting like really soon!

Goodbye my friends! Tonight is a good night to sleep:)

That poor little girl that is afraid of a tutor

2011-05-02T22:31:00.000-07:00

I stopped updating facebook

I stopped using MSN

Maybe the next social networking tool that I'd stop using might be twitter...

Wait. not quite possible:)

i tell twitter what im thinking

i tell twitter how i feel

i tell twitter what's happening

I tell twitter almost everything

I spent my time with twitter and i can't live without it.

That explains why twitter is my boyfriend.LOL!

Right now, I am imagining the cold death stare my tutor will be giving me tommorrow.

And i am not anticipating it at all.

How i wish tuesday doesn't exist on the calendar.

Or I wish I'd fall ill tomorrow.

I am so damn afraid of CEM tutorials now.

Dear Lord, can my tutor be a little bit more kind/gentle pretty pretty pleaseeee~~~?

And i pray v v v hard that I won't be late for her lesson becos I wouldn't want to be murdered by her

Forgotten

2011-05-01T01:21:00.000-07:00

I've been waiting, waiting for nothing.

Do you know?

Back to normality

2011-04-30T01:28:00.000-07:00

School was ....ok i suppose

I miss year 1. the taking notes part.

Now, We have to print our notes ourselves and most of the time we don't really have to copy notes, except for managerial accounting.

I like seeing familiar faces in school! But i hate waking up early part.

My life is gonna be:

wake up

school

lecture

tutorial

home

sleep

wake up...

again

Somehow i like normality:)

I hope she's better

losing sight

2011-04-26T23:59:00.000-07:00

"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn~" - love the way you lie song.

No im not watching someone burn but I'm watching someone leave...

How many times do i have to watch people walk out of my life and all i could fucking do is watch?

The cliche " i am afraid" is just a stupid excuse.

I hate this part.

It's like standing still. feeling helpless. and slowly watching shadows disappear.

I wanted to reach out for you but we became so distant.

We lost sight of each other.

We forgot what/where we were.